So many men….

I can’t decide what or who I want.  Actually, it’s not entirely true.  Just something on which I need to take my time.

Pookie

I care for him a great deal and know that he cares for me.  However, he is still looking at jobs out of state.  Right now it’s sweeps month and we’ve managed to squeeze in a text or two every day – but that’s it.  This happens every 3 months PLUS it’s wedding season (the photography business he has on the side).  Sooooo….being honest with myself, I am someone who prefers attention.  It doesn’t make it easy on things when he has no time for me – I’m not angry with him, just doesn’t help build a relationship.

The Professor

This is a funny (not ha-ha, strange) thing.  We talk more now than we did when we were dating.  And this reminds me of something he said at the very beginning – expectations are different when you go from friendship to dating rather than just starting out dating.  And it feels like maybe we’re building the friendship we should have had before we tried to date.

The thing is, the more we talk, the more I enjoy him.  I can’t decide if we’re always meant to be friends or if this is the start of a relationship all over again.

If you think it’s confusing to read this stuff – you should try being me.

Coach

We are drifting further and further apart, which is a good thing.  It feels right to do so.  It’s not that I don’t care about him – I always will.  But we talk on the phone maybe 30 minutes total per week – where we used to spend 7-8 hours per day online together AND talk on the phone for about 20 minutes every day.  It just feels as though we’re on a natural progression to the end and it’s not the horrible thing it once was.

Hunter

Is he still even on here?  Lol.  He finally contacted me and said, you know, I had a great time the night we went out and I’m not ready for a relationship and you are.  I said, great, thanks.  And see, it’s not that hard to communicate.  Of course, my cynical mind says, you’re probably still married (no, he’s not, I looked it up, although of course, he could have remarried.)

So that’s it.  Now you know….that I’m just as confused as ever.